Some Clarification, and HELP PLEASE

Hey there. I just wanted to clarify my opinions about something I mentioned in my post Calendar from the other day.

I mentioned the Two Houses message, but I wasn’t clear about which message I was speaking about. Honestly, I think I wrote the post too quickly and wasn’t sure what I was talking about myself. From my point of view, I thought I was talking about the reconciliation of the two physical houses of Israel and Judah.

I do not agree, however,  with the theology that Ephraim, or the House of Israel, is represented by Gentile believers and that the reunion is between us Gentiles and Judah. That doesn’t sit right with me. If someone can give me a good, scripturally heavy, scripturally sound explanation, I will think about it. To me, it takes away the importance of physical Israel coming back to the land of Israel and reuniting with Judah.

From what I understand, Gentiles are still physical Gentiles, and we join Spiritual Israel through the favour (grace) of the Father. And by following the commands of YHWH, and trusting and leaning on Him, we become sons of the promise. We are not physical Ephraim, but grafted into Spiritual Israel.

So please, if you have any good resources to recommend about Two House theology, please share. I’ve read the notes for the Lost Sheep lesson at 119 Ministries, and they don’t appear to take part in the Ephraimite Movement, unless I misread it.

Also, I’ve been kind of confused about the Hebrew Roots perspective on the traditional Christian Salvation message, that Jesus died for our sins, and born again in Him we have new life. Currently I’m trying to get a grasp on the Torah before I revisit the Gospels, but people have started to ask me my position on the traditional Gospel and Jesus, and I feel like my answer is shaky. Even thinking about how to write it here I feel like I’m missing parts.

So please please, this is a HELP ME post. I’ve got so many questions, and I know that’s the right place to start. I hope a wiser reader stumbles across this entry and helps me out. Thank you!

I move back to school today, and I’ll be interacting with all my other Christian friends again. Part of me wants to be able to give them the perfect answer, but I guess it’s also okay to say “I’m not sure, still investigating.” Oy vey, I need to learn some patience. Thank you Abba for your mercy.


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So I was on Michael Rood’s website, and stumbled upon his calendar. I noticed that the dates listed for the feasts are different than what I was finding on chabad.org, a Rabbinical Jewish website. Huh, why is that? So I googled it, and found


I am still new to all of this, so this PDF is very helpful in explaining the history of the currently used Rabbinical calendar and the new re-instated Scriptural calendar.

It’s very easy to simply follow what Rabbinical Jews do, because in my mind I assume they are more Scripturally accurate. Now, I don’t accept everything they do. There are certain ways I think they place more importance on the words of the Torah, rather than the meaning. And then of course they place more importance in Oral Torah than the written YHWH-given Mosaic Torah. But I had not yet looked into the calendar, and just assumed the Rabbinical one was correct.

I feel that every day YHWH brings me into a deeper level of truth. And when He reveals these matters to me, the truth underneath it all feels obvious. I don’t know how else to say it, but I don’t have to fight whatever the new truth is. Often times writers encourage the reader to go to the scriptures and check for themselves, which we absolutely should do. But when I read something that is very clearly p’shat, I can’t even make myself disagree. I feel its depth and its truth.

So, when I read this PDF about the calendar, it all made sense to me and I had no reason to even try to defend the Rabbinical calendar. You can read it yourself to find out all about the barley and the month of Aviv, but there are a few other points in the article that stuck out to me.

First is about the controversy among those in the Hebrew Roots movement concerning Rabbinical calendar versus Torah calendar. To me, quite frankly, following the Torah calendar is the obvious answer. But the issue goes deeper than the calendar, because it goes back to who has the authority.

It is the Talmud that has established the Rabbinic calendar as the calendar for all Israel, including those in the Diaspora. On the other hand, the authority behind the Biblical calendar is the written Torah. The tension that is tearing at the unity of the Hebraic Roots/Messianic Movement is simply the tension that exists when the written Torah and the oral Torah do not agree.

Why does there even need to be tension between following the Rabbis, and following Torah? The article eventually goes on to describe the main “branches” of the Hebraic movement. 1) Jews believing in Jesus without abandoning Rabbinical Judaism. 2) Jews converting to mainstream Christianity. 3) The Two House teaching, reconciling the divided houses of Israel. and 4) Simply encouraging followers of Yahshua to lead a Torah observant lifestyle. Of course these ideas are not mutually exclusive, as the writer says, but they do contribute to the motivations of following the Rabbinical or the Torah calendar.

Personally, the first two branches of the movement may have been good starting places, but they are not where truth lies. I am excited about reconciling the Two Houses, the true scriptural meaning of “Ministry of Reconciliation.” And of course, believers of the Two Houses teaching would also encourage believers of Yahshua to lead a Torah observant lifestyle. They are not mutually exclusive.

But it seems ridiculous to be adherent to the commands of Torah and not teach or believe in the Two Houses teaching. If you are truly a seeker of righteousness and student of the Torah, the importance of the redemption of the Two Houses becomes clear. However, I don’t yet have a deep enough knowledge on the subject to expound upon it further. Scripture is so deep there is only so much you can learn in six months!

As I mentioned recently, I have many questions about my upcoming school year, particularly in applying Torah among Christian campus ministries. I was planning on participating in the festivals with the Jewish organization on campus, but now I realize that may not be an option. How do you celebrate a festival…alone? I’ve used the believer maps on a few different websites, and there are no Hebrew Roots believers any nearer than an hour. Should I follow the Spirit of the Torah and celebrate with the Rabbinical Jews? Or do I stick to the Torah and celebrate on the correct days?

It’s a question that can only be answered in prayer, but I’m wondering what your thoughts are. Thanks for reading!





Important lesson! I’m so glad I read it, and you should too! Basic one-line summary: Anything that contradicts the basic, natural, normal interpretation of Scripture is invalid. Chew on that.

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What is paradise?  Thoughts of a beautiful tropical beach with white sands and crystal clear water with coconut trees may come to mind when we think of the word paradise.

We get the word paradise from the word pardes.  It means garden or orchard.  The word pardes is actually formed by an acronym that outlines the 4 levels of Biblical interpretation.  (PRDS)  The gematria for the Hebrew letter Dalet is the number 4.  The letter dalet looks like and means, among other things, an open door.

There are 4 ways in which we look at and interpret scripture.  Each one builds on the next and is a more deeper level.  Let us now take a closer look at these different levels or layers of interpretation and see what their characteristics are.

1.) P’shat– This is the plain, simple meaning of the text.  It is the understanding of the scripture…

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I am amazed at how much I change every year. The dreams I held a year ago are different than the dreams I hold now. I can plan and scheme all I want, but I have no idea who I will be next year or the year after. I simply have to trust that Abba knows what is in store for me, and follow Him day by day.

Speaking of following Him day by day, do you ever try to follow Him tomorrow, today? I mean, try to figure out what He wants for you tomorrow, today? But in Yeshua’s Sermon on the Mount, He has a whole section about worrying, mainly, DON’T WORRY! One of the most famous lines is, “Do not, then, worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow shall have its own worries. Each day has enough evil of itself.” But the “Therefore” is not there alone, it follows, “But seek first the reign of Elohim, and His righteousness, and all these matters shall be added to you.”

Seek first His righteousness, and everything else will follow. Am I really seeking the tsedek of YHWH? How much of my time do I spend thinking about His righteousness, and how much time do I spend worrying about what I need to do?

I go back to school in a few days, and my mind keeps wandering to worries. Before my study abroad trip, I was heavily active in two campus ministries. Now that I have learned so much about Torah, my theology and practice is so different from all of my peers. So I worry, which meetings do I go to? What do I say to my friends? Should I still attend a non-Hebrew Roots congregation?

The newness is a bit scary, I have to admit. A place that was once my comfort zone is now unfamiliar. There will be two classes of freshman, last year’s and this year’s, to meet, and my comfortable Christian ministry may not be so comfortable anymore.

But YHWH says not to worry, and to seek His righteousness. He already knows what conversations I will have, where He wants me to go, and who I will meet, so I do not need to be anxious about it. I want to plan it all out, but He’s already got a plan and it’s a way better plan than I could ever make.

As I told my atheist brother, YHWH doesn’t ask us to have faith because it’s easy. If faith were easy, we’d all believe in YHWH and follow Him. But to depend and lean on YHWH, to trust that He knows exactly what we’re going through, when we have no control over the situation, that is hard. And it doesn’t always feel good either.

When Moshe first came back to Mistrayim to free the Israelites, and Pharaoh initially increased their workload, and the Israelites blamed Moshe, obedience must not have felt good. But if Moshe hadn’t obeyed, where would the Israelites be today?

Even if they don’t feel good, YHWH’s commands are always good. 

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Why? Why should I go through all the trouble of learning Torah and doing things the Hebrew way? Hasn’t YHWH been blessing us through the ministry of the church and Jesus for centuries? Haven’t I witnessed miracles done in the name of Jesus? What makes it different if I say His name Yeshua or Yahweh?

It’s easier to think in equations and formulas, lines and boxes, black and white. If I say this prayer this way, God will heal a person. God forgives this sin, but not that one. You have to live your life this way, or you’re doing it wrong. This is the best way to live. God thinks this way about that kind of sin. God isn’t like that.

Who am I to say what YHWH is like or what He thinks? Who am I to say when He will or will not heal a person? Who am I to say what exactly is the right way to follow YHWH?

Before I started learning to find my identity in YHWH, my identity was in my intellect. Actually, if I were honest I would say that I still find much of my identity and value in my intellect, in my wisdom, and in my understanding. I pride myself on knowing the right answers. But when I started discovering Torah, just when I thought I was getting answers, I found out just how little I actually understand.

I have witnessed healing at the name of Jesus, and felt the Holy Spirit move. How do I teach Torah and Hebrew Roots knowing that as Pagan as the words “Jesus” and “Holy” are, that YHWH still moves when called by those names?

Growing up, I was called Gennie. But when I got to high school and there were too many other Jennys and Jennifers, I decided to go by my full name Genevieve. When I meet someone new, and they want to abbreviate my name to Gen or Gennie, I tell them, “No,” because I much prefer Genevieve.

Yes, YHWH is His one and only name. But YHWH is not a dog that only comes when we call his name and no other name. YHWH is larger and more complex than I can even begin to understand. Yes, He has reason for us to know and use His name. But that does not mean He does not answer when someone calls Him by a mistranslated name.

When Moshe asked YHWH what he shall say to the Israelites is the name of their Elohim, YHWH replied, “‘eheyeh ‘asher ‘eheyeh.” Commonly translated as “I am that which I am,” there are many ways to translate this phrase, and the proper translation is probably all of them. But one which I like is, “I shall be there howsoever I shall be there.”

YHWH will be there howsoever He will be there. Even if He’s called Jesus, or God, or Lord, or Holy Spirit, or Jehovah, He will be there. He moves when He moves because He moves. He loves whom He loves because He loves.

YHWH does not command us to seek understanding, but to seek Him. The logic behind it does not matter. He says go, we go. He says stay, we stay. We cannot see the endgame, so why should we ignore the One who does?

To go back to my earlier questions, How do I teach Torah and Hebrew Roots knowing that as Pagan as the words “Jesus” and “Holy” are, that YHWH still moves when called by those names? I will go on studying and sharing knowledge of Torah and Hebrew Roots because YHWH has put it on my heart. It doesn’t matter if I understand why, where, or how. It’s about Him, not about me. Even if my words fail, His love never will. No matter how small I may think I am, He is bigger. Amen.

Trust in YHWH with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
Know Him in all your ways,
And He makes all your paths straight



I think I disgusted my boyfriend the other day.

We were having a theological argument discussion, as we tend to do. That day we happened to be talking about how the Christian Jesus feels too Pagan for him to follow. Meanwhile, I’m trying to show my (Jewish) boyfriend just how Jewish Yeshua is. We finally ended the discussion, and he made a funny comment about how Abba must be okay with magic, because my boyfriend loves Fantasy literature so much (as I do).

Well, said I, He’s okay with magic that is done according to His will. I mentioned works of healing, prophecy, and more. Eventually I cited that the Pagan sacrificing of children is an abomination to YHWH because they were doing spiritual works outside of YHWH’s will and for their own purposes. My boyfriend tried to make a point about modern American child sacrifices, but I said that was not my point. My point was that they had disobeyed YHWH, and that was the greater sin.

Wait, you’re saying that disobeying YHWH is worse than sacrificing children? He asked.

Our conversation didn’t last much longer, but I think that might have bothered him a little bit. My point is that sin is sin, no matter what it is.

Don’t get me wrong. Killing children is disgusting. Absolutely disgusting. But, it is disgusting because YHWH says it is, because doing so is goes against His commands. Technically, if YHWH commanded such a deed, it would not be sinful or disgusting. In fact, YHWH asked such of Abraham, to offer up his only son. Yes, Yitzhaq was a grown man, but he was Abraham’s promised son, and YHWH told Abraham to offer him up.

However, YHWH saved Yitzhaq in the end, and Abraham was rewarded for his obedience. Thankfully, YHWH is a loving Creator, and He has made it a command not to sacrifice children. That does not mean there is not lawful killing. In Exodus, Abba outlines capital punishment for crimes of premeditated murder (not accidental murder), attacking and harming your parents, kidnapping whether the victim is harmed or not, and even cursing or shaming your parents. (Torah Class, Exodus lesson 22). Capital punishment protects innocent lives. How many prisoners finish their time and commit more crimes?

The law of capital punishment is an aspect of YHWH’s instructions that we see as “disgusting”. We are above such laws, we are more “humane” than that. Kosher? Kosher is tedious and unnecessary; we know how to cook our food properly. Sabbath? We have “Sunday”, the day “Jesus” rose from the dead. That must be more important than something YHWH commanded the Hebrews to follow. No images? That’s just ridiculous. We don’t worship images of a (gentile) Jesus or wear crosses (of the sun-deity Tammuz.) It’s just art, just symbols.

When are we going to stop favoring our idea of what is right, and start obeying His word, His instructions? Even if they seem disgusting, old fashioned, or tedious, they are YHWH’s instructions. I’ll end here with some words of the Apostle Yochanan.

My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Y’shua Messiah the righteous. He is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the sins of the whole world. And by this we know that we have come to know him, if we keep his commandments. Whoever says “I know him” but does not keep his commandments is a liar, and the truth is not in him, but whoever keeps his word, in him truly the love of Elohim is perfected. By this we may know that we are in him: whoever says he abides in him ought to walk in the same way in which he walked.